The Weirdness of it all.

Well, I'm not sure how the volunteers are doing at the golf tournament, but as of yesterday evening, there were enough of them! Thank God for pulling it all together! Hopefully, that translates to their work on the green!



Rick and Doug left early this morning and likely won't be back til evening. This has left the girls and me here at Paamul all day. The temperature was cool today, so swimming and sun bathing were not on the "things to do" list! However, it seems we will be bringing our allowed luggage weight back in sea shells!!! Yep, great day for shell hunting.



Also a great day for reading and studying. Sitting by the pool today, doing my beth Moore "Patriarchs" homework, (yes fellow biblestudy girls, I'm still with you!) I was mulling over this statement:



"Our difficulties are filled with meaning and far-reaching effects, leaving warm blessing on our earthly journey." (pg. 108 at the top girls!)



While I was chewing on that, I heard the woman on the lounger beside me telling another tanned been-in-Mexico-forever woman about her basic backround - you know, where she was from, how many kids, what she did for a living; stuff like that. She went on to tell the tanned woman that she had grown up on a farm with cattle and sheep.



I too, grew up on a farm. My parents were grain farmers. My kids were growing up on a farm...

I truely know no other life.



I have to tell you, my gut kinda turned. I felt this strange lump in my throat, and even now, typing this, I want to bust up into tears. I can't help it. I know I am working at Canadian Lifelight Ministries and here in Mexico because of God's leading. So when am I done grieving over our loss? Why would it even come up when I know without a doubt that God is working His plan?



I know, I know. I can hear you all the way from here...



"You're in paradise!!!!!!! QUIT your blubbering!"



I will admit, that I want to focus on the word "difficulties" in the afore mentioned quote. I should be focusing on the 'filled with meaning...far-reaching effects...warm blessing" part of it.




It is the strangest combination of homesickness and awe I feel. Right from the beginning of our 'Patriarchs" study, I knew it would speak into my life - IMMEDIATELY! Abraham left his country, and set out for the land God told him to go to. He had no idea where he was going! God never said!



I will only be here in Mexico for two weeks, but the life of farming that God seems to have called us to leave makes me feel a lot like Abraham....cuz I have no idea where we are going!



I pray that "my difficulties are filled with meaning and far-reaching effects, and will leave warm blessings." ...both here in Mexico and back home.