Spiritual Breakthrough

This is sooooo weird. I'm not sure I even remember how to blog. I'm not sure I remember how to write either. I have had no inspiration to write this past winter. Maybe that's because I don't have any more answers today than I did back in October.

I have felt so...I don't know....blah. I love my job. I love my church. I love my ladies cell group. I love our couples cell group. I am involved in ministry wherever I can. Somehow, it has felt as though I am just not very effective in ministry, or growing in ministry gifts.

This January was a season of fasting in our church. I was so glad and very ready to enter into this season. Now, that's not to say that you can't fast at any time of the year. The reason I was looking forward to this is because I felt like I simply wouldn't make it on my own. I really needed the encouragement, accountability and teaching to help me get through it.

Yep. It was exactly what the doctor ordered! In some areas of my life, I saw God's grace pour out immediately! in other areas..... ummm... not so much. Some areas took courage, confession and repentance to pry the doors open. But when they opened just a crack, it was enough to give me the energy to keep at it.

We are told in Matthew to ask, seek and knock, and it will be given to us, we will find, and the door will be opened. I have come to realize that these are verbs. Go figure! Something else I realized was that these verbs need to be used in a marathon format!

The struggle we are in with our farm is definitely a marathon. I love those ministry "water stops" God has set up for me along the way. But it just wasn't enough. I was still thirsty after those little dixie cups of H2O! When I fasted and prayed, drinking in as much of God as possible, I finally felt as though I had stopped at a spring of cool, refreshing water. After all, Jesus did call himself "Living Water."

The thing with water, is that you have to KEEP drinking. How parched, dry and weak do we have to become before we head for the water again? The rule of thumb is that we should be drinking 8 - 10 glasses of water a day. Imagine if we used that rule of thumb for "Living Water?!!!!"

...Now there's food - umm... water for thought!